I need a huge bottle of Tylenol.

I am fighting this headache like there is no tomorrow. I cannot figure out why its been bugging the sh*t out of me. I know part of its stress. Under quite a bit right now but still. I am not getting the proper amount of sleep either. Worried about alot of things is keeping me up. So tonight, I am trying something totally new. In BED by 9pm. Meaning, laying down and resting my eyes.

No news on the Adjuster from the insurance either. They said it can take awhile. Which I am sure it is and will. It took less than 5 minutes for my life to literally go down the drain but in order to get it all back is taking months. Its been 45 days I think. That is a long time to have to go to the laundry mat twice a week. Billion dollars later, and hours wasted sitting in a laundry mat is not my ideal of fun. I am used to having time while my laundry is washing to do dishes, clean house, vacuum. Now I have NO NO NO NO energy to do my housework. I am literally worn down and thin. What is wrong with me?

No need to be alone for this.

This post is for a certain person. No Matter what, you need to remain strong and be better not only for yourself but for your children as well. Only you can make the right choices and decisions in life. In life, God gives us these little tests to see how strong we really are. And boy do I know those tests. The more recent one being my basement. And numerous things happening around that day. Won't go into details but the thing is. Right now, you need to make the right choices. If you don't feel strongly about it, then don't do it. You must feel strong about any decision you make. When it comes down right to it, our parents won't always be there for us. I don't look forward to that day. Like you, I love my Mom and my Dad. Same as you. It don't matter what has happened in the past, we all must look forward to the future. Because we can't change history but we sure can change our futures. Ask yourself where do you want to be ONE year from now? Give yourself a goal and stick to it. I have a goal. I had a few speed bumps, went around a few but I am working to get to that goal.

Just remember too, your parents will always be there. Sometimes it might not feel like it or things are said to make you think otherwise. Just make the right choices is all they want you to do. Maybe think of it like this, you want to be better than the situation. Do you want to put yourself in a bad situation and something happen to the kids? I honestly don't think you would ever do that but things do happen. And it happens for a reason. Today should be a great to start making positive decisions and making the best for yourself. Buy a whole bunch of V8, and knock yourself in the head before you do or say anything you don't feel strongly about.

I hope you don't take this post in a negative manner, its not intended for that at all. Its to help you maybe think about how you want to live life. By staying positive and strong.

BTW, you didn't happen to see Dog The Bounty Hunter late last night about the Girl whose Boyfriend hung himself right after writing a letter saying he wanted to revoke his ties to her bond. And how his Mother forgave that girl, and told her in order to get her life straight she needs to come clean. I cried so hard because I have never seen Beth, Dog, Youngblood and the other dude cry like that. For that Mother to forgive this girl, who was a apart of her Son's life took alot of heart. But its amazing to see that people are strong. She also told her, that she will always be her daughter in law. In the letter he said, that he thought she was someone he could settle down with. I cried because he thought the pain was much more than that to take his own life. But he loved her. Man did I cry....lol. Here is the LINK for that episode. Its named The Last Call....I know sounds humble but it was a real wake up call for some.

I am going to work today for a couple of hours....I need money.

OMG.

I know I am so prone to ear infections and sinus infections. I am currently fighting a sinus infection. I can feel it coming on, the pressure in my face is killing me. The headache itself is horrendous. Not sure what to do either. Because when one has a sinus infection they want it to run its course. Well this little girl and running the course will cause me to lose work and that means NO money. I can't afford that. With the way things are going right now its not even funny. I know too its causing alot of stress and that could be contributing to my headaches.


So if anyone called me today and I was bitchy and short with you....now you know why.

Blog Surfing and I found this...

I love to surf blogs, just to see what total strangers are blogging about. And I came across this site:




I am a scrapbooking Fanatic. I can't help it. I love it. Even though with my recent water issues and the flooding of my basement, I lost alot of stuff. Not that it really put a dent in my stash but at least now I can start with a new stuff. Whoot. I love shopping for new stuff.

I am so behind on blog reading..

That I totally missed this from Jill on July 12th. I cannot believe I did that. I think with everything that has happened since July 4th, my mind has been in a blur and disbelief. You know the kind of not wanting to believe that something has just happened to you. But Jill had given me my very first blog award....



So here I am awarding these people, who are just as awesome as Jill is. Thank you Jill!!!

My Yesterdays

Alysia "I can play peekaboo!"

My Single Mom Life

Steffanie----in which keeps her life private. I respect that....;)


Hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!!

I hate shopping for Car Insurance.

But its a State requirement for everyone and its something that I have come to find out is very important to have. Finding Auto Insurance is very important to me, learning from experience in the past and more recently. I just found out yesterday that one of my Best Friends was in a serious car accident last Friday which was my birthday. It totally broke my heart to hear about it and I've been so upset and tearing myself apart for not being there for her. If she would of called me, I would of dropped whatever I was doing to be there. I am greatful she is ok, but her car is totaled. Talking, the motor is where her radio normally would sit. The car buckled up in the middle so the seats are leaning outwards are both sides. Her door would not opened so they used the jaws of life to get her out. Thank goodness they both are ok. Her 4 year old daughter went up to the man that hit them and asked him, Why he hit her Mommy? Why he hit them and make them hurt? Pretty smart 4 year old in my book.

So while I've been home, I been searching for the best insurance, and Advantage Auto Quotes was pretty easy to navigate and they set you up or match you up with insurance companies. There were only a couple of screens and questions to answer, just like if you went to a insurance agency. I sent mine in, and it was actually cheaper than the place I called today about. I am also including Renter's Insurance with the Water Backup plan. I am tired of losing stuff due to other people's mistakes and me having to pay for it all. Its totally not right. I can't stress it enough, sometimes insurance companies don't stress what isn't covered. Like Flood damage isn't unless you have that rider and in a flood plain. In my case, I live on top of a hill. Not a flood plain. But having the Water Backup damage plan is something I know I can feel safe with. Thinking about getting the sewer pump plan too. My family possessions is worth so much.

***Update***

On Thursday, the insurance adjuster is coming to my house to assess the damage that was done and on everything I lost. Needless to say, I've been studying my pictures into what I have lost and what was damaged. I am nervous yet excited that maybe I can get some closure on some things here. Wish me luck.

My life is more important than someone else's stupidity.

I only say that because of what has happened to me in the past month. It was a pretty shitty birthday at that. On June 12th, the city decided to put a overlay on our main road. No biggie right? Well, around July 1st, the construction company decided to do something with the storm drains/sewer or whatever it was. Left a BIG hole in the road. We were told the whole project would take a week. Well, almost a month later on July 4th, in the early morning hours. We had a storm. No Big Deal. The problem with that is, with the road construction it caused major backups into peoples basements. I, myself had 3 feet of water. I also had alot of stuff in the basement that meant alot to me. Now why I had stuff down there is. There isn't alot of room for storage here. Two closets. And we have never had water in the basement ever in the time I lived here. If there was water, it was a tiny stream. I am talking tiny. The landlord totally freaked out on how much water there was. She didn't see what I went thru. I had 15 years of my life, in boxes and plastic totes. Which by the way, doesn't work in that amount of water. My basement is HUGE. I am talking the entire length of my house and width. That is alot of water. Well, it also ruined the Hot water heater and furnace.

Our local newspaper and two tv stations ran stories not only on me but 83 other people who were affected because of this road construction. Its just a coincidence, that the majority of the people affected are in one general area. It also flooded my Son's grade school. In the newspapers, people can be really negative and tell us. It was an Act of God and get over it. It might of been an Act of God but please tell me why they found brick, sand,gravel and other construction debris in the storm drains? I still don't see that being an Act of God. Right now, there are alot of people filing claims with the construction companies insurance company. But what to my understanding is, why are they wanting to send a adjuster to my house to access the damage if they have to file a investigation into what has happened? Wouldn't they do the investigation then send the adjuster out? Who knows, I am confused.

But what I am asking is that I get some input from others who have gone thru similiar situations and what their outcome was. My problem I have is, our insurance company will not cover as did not have "flood" insurance. It was not a option living on top of a hill, so its not covered. Even renters insurance wouldn't cover it. Does not even give me an option to pay extra for it. So see, basically I am stuck in a rut. I simply cannot wait to find out what will happen.

Everyday, since July 4th. Yes July 4th. I have prayed for the Katrina Victims more recently. And to all other Flood Victims as well. In order for me to make it thru this rough time, I am finding the stories of surviving thru something so near and dear that helps me cope. I have been extremely depressed and find myself sleeping alot. Because of everything that has happened. I also have a 10 year old Son who also lost alot of his toys. Why were his toys in the basement you might be asking? He got into trouble, and I know he is afraid of the basement. So I took his toys away, a move I deeply regret to this day. He has went with his Dad on that very day so he would not have to watch me throw everything away. But what I didn't know is, when he would come home that he would go out and start digging thru stuff to find his toys. He cried, and cried because his toys were gone. I can't imagine what a child feels losing his possessions at such a young age.

If anyone can give me some light, whether its positive or negative its fine. I can handle it. I just want what is best for me and my Son. I am now starting to save my money from PayPerPost to buy a new washer and dryer if things don't work out.

Tuesday....

Welcome to my lovely little life. Here I am trying to create new memories and snotty ass people have to make the worst comments on something so tragic and try to turn it into something that its not. Granted its not what the Katrina Victims went thru and now I completely understand exactly what they have and still are going thru with losing all their possessions to a flood/hurricane. I have never once called and NEWSPAPER or TV Station on anything, they have found ME. They want my story on to what happened. They want to know why it happened in my neighborhood where road construction just so happen to be going on at the same time. So now in about 5 minutes, my interview will be on the news. They showed up at my house right before noon today without notice, and yesterday was the newspaper wanting pictures of the basement. I am embarassed to what I have to show the city where I live, exactly what has happened but its the only way to get our points across as to what happened in an area that has never flooded before.

On that morning of July 4th...its a day that I will NEVER forget. My Son was to go to his Dad's for the holiday. I stayed up til' midnight the night before getting all my laundry done. Needless to say, it never got done. All my Son's shorts were in the dryer soaking in the dirty mud water. Yah. Being a Single Mom and working paycheck to paycheck, barely making it. Totally devastated me. I work hard just like the next person.

Monday....

That is about what describes my weekend. And I am wishing it was last Friday again. Me, Dawn, Nicole, Andrew and Jonathan all went to Adventureland...and had a blast. As usual. Or at least I did. Going anywhere with my friends, means having tons of fun. I think its the idea of getting to spend time with them is what means the most to me.

Now for the fun part, when we arrived at Adventureland. The first thing we did was the Space Shot. Both Dawn and I did it. The kids...were kinda like. ummmm NO. Then we went to the Raging River, if I get things out of order its because I am still half asleep. Went to The OutLaw Roller Coaster...(FUN) and the water ride that shoots down a long hill. We also rode the Dragon, Tornado and watched the kids ride a few rides. We stopped in Newton,IA on the way back to check out the race track there. Pretty cool might I say.

Were having more babies.

Man oh man Robby...you have sure spread your seed. Our Sassy is delivering as I speak. She has had 3 so far. Two black and one White so far. We found Sassy under Jonathan's bed, pushing so it was a "just in time" thing when Mike said...um...where's Sassy? I went in, laid on the floor and there she was...PUSHING. Grrrrrrr.

I bought some Schwans to day.

Yummmm. I got some Confetti Cake Ice Cream, Marsala Chicken with Bowtie pasta, Pink Lemonade and Wild Cherry juice drink, how cool is that. Oh and some vegetables brocolli, carrots, and cauliflower. I know I could buy the stuff cheaper at the store but I got two gallons of ice cream for free. Whoot!!!!

Kids and video games.

I am sitting here listening to my Son, throw a fit and call the TV names. I try not to let him play too much due to all the negativity but he's been good.

I am trying to figure out what to have for dinner. Not too sure. My tummy has been hurting all day. Not sure if its nerves or just a plain tummy ache. I dreamt that I missed my doc. appt. today. How ironic is that? When I got there, the doctor was running late by an hour.

My Second Surgery is looming here.

I went for my 6 week check up today, everything is good with my left hand. Now its time for my Right hand. I am nervous because its my dominate hand. I have to start training my left hand, way before my surgery to learn certain things...like bathroom. Writing, and other little things. Then I have to have a MRI done on my knee. When my basement flooded something happened and its been hurting ever since. So this is how my luck goes.

Gettin' excited.

Yep, four days and counting. I sure hope it doesn't rain come Friday. I really want to go to Adventureland and enjoy the day with my Son. So far every year its been pretty crappy going up but turns into Sunshine by the time we make it there. I am going to be watching the weather every bit I can. I am going to be taking TONS of pictures again this year. Why? Cause I have to restart most of my memories and might as well start with a New Beginning.

My horoscope.

Today's Leo Horoscope
July 23 - August 22

Trivial matters aren't so trivial today -- you would be wise to look at all the issues of the day deeply, no matter how silly they might seem. You might think that the personal dramas going on around you are irrelevant to your life, but that is not the case. When things blow up between two people, the entire group can be negatively affected. Lines are drawn; sides are taken. So if you sense things getting out of control, take them seriously and try to prevent them from growing.


Isn't that ironic, how it fits me today.

Living on the Edge.

Is what I can say, I did for a very short time. I cannot live like that. Its not my style. I hurt too many people and its not my nature. Right now, there are some things that are sitting in my lap and I really with I could make things different.

Well, I am still working on cleaning this place up. I have a table that is covered with stuff from the basement.

MY GOAL....clear it off and take the table apart and out to the garage.

Cleaning out my closets....for monsters...lol.

I started cleaning my closets out today because I felt it was time for me to begin the process of eliminating "junk" in my house. I guess you can say, after the flood I was devastated...well actually still devastated. But I am coping with it with the best attitude possible. I believe it actually made me a better person today. I now believe that if I don't see it, I won't miss it or if I haven't used it within a year then to throw it away or give it to Good Will or something. I cannot believe the drastic change in my bedroom. I have a floor, (not that I didn't before) but I can actually see my hope chest. I forgot how pretty it was. My friend Alysia is going to let me use her steam cleaner so I can do the carpets in there and in my Son's room. I still have sooooo much crap to deal with its not even funny. But I am betting that I can get it done before tomorrow. Even if that means staying up all night just to get it done. Just wish I had more storage ya know?

Now for next friday, its official. My Son and I are driving to Des Moines,IA to Adventureland for the day. Also going is my best friend Dawn and her kids. (I am jumping in my seat). We had such a blast last year that we are going to make it a yearly thing. Taking a couple of coolers of food and drinks, and we will be set to go. Definitely taking the camera to take more pics. as I came across the ones from last year and I loved them. I am getting excited...lol. Well....not gettin' anything done here now so off to cleaning still. It actually feels good to throw crap away....lol.

Seriously any more bad news?

Now that I officially jinxed myself. I was all hyped up about paying for our trip to Adventureland when I arrived at Daycare to find a sign that says...all seats are full. I was sooooo pissed. Its the one time a year, I get to spend an entire day with my Son at a fun place. AND IT'S FULL. A$$holes. I couldn't afford to pay til' today. So now, here I am sitting here thinking about I can spend the day with my Son doing something fun. One thought I had was to go ahead and drive there myself in my Van. I mean after all it was only a chartered bus with movies, breakfast and other fun things to do. Maybe its better to just go by ourselves in my vehicle, leave when we want and do whatever we want. I was going to spend at least $80 for our spots, well its only about $40 for us to get in, and I would spend about $40 for gas...at least. So either way it will work out. If I do decide to do this, I need a oil change. I might go and do that now that way its out of the way. I've been neglecting the oil...oops.